Happy Happy Happy.............Fear.

What's worse? A still tongue? Or people who won't hear?

If you still your tongue, there remains the possibility that people would listen if you actually spoke.
This is comforting. It allows the illusion of the best of outcomes in the best of worlds to go untested, and if you are happy with this it can only be because you are unable to care, whether through fear or indifference.
But how can this be happiness?

It isn't.
You will try and strive and work and hoard your spiritual goods against all examination.
Then the day will come when you wish to take them aside and look at them.

And you may experience a moment of happiness.
Then you will be conscious of everything you have allowed to go unchallenged.
And you will be afraid.

Will you speak then?At last?

The other possibility is that you put silence to flight and try other people.
They will listen(maybe).They will look at your credentials(none), and decide that you aren't 'qualified' to speak.
So you will come to realise that there is no reason to speak if other people are the reason.
So you speak to hear your own reality made real.

And that is a powerful drug.
You will speak.You will be ignored.
Then, one day, after you have been speaking so long that you realise other people are irritated by the lack of silence, something will rush at your head out of the dark air, and you will wonder what.
It may leave a mark on your mind.
It may silence you.
It may make you change the subject.

It may anger you.
Anger is a fine thing when expressed. But we have laws for that. So it becomes a disease, something which clogs the arteries of the mind and leads to moral seizure that makes it impossible to continue.

At this stage the wise man takes a rest and allows the fuse to fizzle out.

The wise man also remembers.

When he continues, he will see the 'creature of the dark' again and again.
This must be the psychological mirror that reflected the image of the Vampire and other monsters.

But a pattern will emerge, for the creatures, despite their 'sophistication', are not necessarily all that bright.
The pattern will imply the existence of something apart from the random, something cruising through the social fog like the Bismarck in 1941.

And, if you have a scientist's mind, you can test for the existence and behaviour of this enemy; being wary all the time not to be too much of a nuisance. For if they notice you they will also consider their options and the nocturnal visitation will accelerate.

Now comes the crux of the matter, all the knowledge of modus operandi, the reluctance of their persecution, the fastidiousness of their abuse; if you are small they will ignore you.
If you are not too small they will approach, to either subborn you or intimidate you.
At which stage you will realise the essential truth: the Gods first drive mad those whom they wish to destroy;but these are far from gods.
They are crappy, evil, fallible little people and where people are concerned, every evil has a point of delivery.

So.
The journey continues. You learn what sort of people these are. And then the fun begins. You tell the world.